Broken Soul

He called me his son

I called him my father

He told me to be wise

So the one taunting him

He’d put to shame

He accepted me as his son

Yet I kept breaking

Breaking his heart into pieces

Trampling upon his heart

Not meeting his expectations

I disappoint him

Forgive me my father

You keep forgiving me

You gave me multiple second chances

Yet I continue to disappoint

I make you grieve

And bring shame to your name

Forgive me father

To rely on me

To trust in me

To place a bet on me

Its difficult, suicidal

I know

I wouldn’t, if I were in your place

But

Oh father,

I need your help

I desire your discipline

I yearn for your guidance

I crave your thoughts

I plead for your forgiveness

Father, please

I need to change

I want to change

To regret and to repent

Your laws

I need to love

To cherish and to obey

My father,

It’s you I need

To make the most important

The most important person

In my life…