He called me his son
I called him my father
He told me to be wise
So the one taunting him
He’d put to shame
He accepted me as his son
Yet I kept breaking
Breaking his heart into pieces
Trampling upon his heart
Not meeting his expectations
I disappoint him
Forgive me my father
You keep forgiving me
You gave me multiple second chances
Yet I continue to disappoint
I make you grieve
And bring shame to your name
Forgive me father
To rely on me
To trust in me
To place a bet on me
Its difficult, suicidal
I know
I wouldn’t, if I were in your place
But
Oh father,
I need your help
I desire your discipline
I yearn for your guidance
I crave your thoughts
I plead for your forgiveness
Father, please
I need to change
I want to change
To regret and to repent
Your laws
I need to love
To cherish and to obey
My father,
It’s you I need
To make the most important
The most important person
In my life…
