MISERABLE

Yes it’s bad

Yes I know it’s wrong

I realize it’s against my principles, my laws

It isn’t allowed

Yet I find every excuse

In order to partake, enjoy

Thrilling

I know I might be caught

Fascinating

Things I do to cover my trail

I’m high

Adrenaline surging

Like a drug, Ecstacy

Some moments later

A deflating balloon

Guilt

Like the sting of a scorpion

In as much as I struggle to quit

Emotions multiplex

I can succeed, I’m determined…

I can’t succeed, I’m a loser…

I don’t know…